A real catch 22

     In May of this year I moved to a new city with my boyfriend. This was due to the house ourselves and our housemates lived in being knocked down. Think that's slightly weird? It happened twice in a row! Nah it's not so weird though, we lived in houses that got knocked down to build new houses. Anyway! Obviously we could have stayed in the area, and found a house near by, but it was my home town, and since the age of about 12, I had been dying to get out of it. Also, we had all been living in a bubble, for about two years or so we had been in our own world, and all of us reluctantly agreed, that it was probably time for us to explore other places, people and things, even if it was just for a little while, plus each of us had certain commitments we needed to uphold, whether they were to ourselves or others. And if you knew my friends and I, you too would agree with us, we were pretty damn dependent on each other in a way.
     So now we are all apart, and I am experiencing a very big predicament. I love the place where I am. It's like the mothership has called me home. It's awesome. To be honest, if I ever had kids, unless I find somewhere better in the time it takes for that to happen, I think I'd want to raise them here. HOWEVER, I recently realised that I have absolutely no desire to make new friends. I know that sounds really bad, and I do love to meet people, and share thoughts with them and such, I guess I enjoy good conversation with interesting people. But ultimately, I do not wish to go out and make friends with people, if it happens it happens, but I don't intend to go out searching for them. One reason is because, I don't really like people, maybe that's just because I've met more bad ones than good, or because I take a very, VERY long time to be myself around people, not because I'm fake or two-faced I don't think, just because I'm shy or self-conscious I guess.
     Therefore I want my friends, the ones who I already have and love so much. But most of them are in different places, not many of them are even in the hometown at present, and most the ones that are will be leaving to go back to uni or jobs in September. And I don't want to be living there at the moment anyway, it was a BIG step to move away, I don't want to reverse that, especially so soon afterwards.
     Here is where my predicament lies, the friends I have aren't moving to where I am, not anytime soon anyway, and I don't want to move home, and I don't think I should move to wherever a friend is, because that's kinda desperate. So I suppose my only option is to stay where I am, and save up enough money to visit people whenever I can and have them visit us when they can. I know that I can live with this, I've been doing it for three months already. It just kinda sucks. But maybe the sucking of it is more prominent because we were, for the most part, all together for quite a good amount of time. Maybe I will actually make loads of new friends, although I promise you now they will not be better than the ones I have already. It's literally not possible. God I hope none of them read this, past or future friends...